Fourth Day Frazzles

Day four and all is

...well

...here anyway!

I made a run this morning to Fry's and to the grocery store; it's after two, and I still haven't really eaten yet, come to think of it. I'm thinking about making another run down to Wally-World and getting some of those other little things I need for the kitchen and around the house. Tupperware, mop, some bowls, perhaps some towels ...little stuff. I bought over a terabyte of storage at Fry's, and I have a 500 gig drive that I'll need to get warrantied; I don't know if it is crashing, or the file system got screwed; I just know it's running WAY too slow.

The niccing out is still here, but I'm not really feeling any huge urge to just stone myself out to escape it though. I really do despise that vicodin and what it does to my stomach, so I guess it MUST be getting a little more bearable on day four if I'm more willing to bear with the discomfort rather than stone myself out (and deal with the other unpleasantness of the vicodin). I was talking to one of my other site friends this morning ...she has a pretty addictive personality I guess, and was all about warnings.

Lol ...I figure it a few different ways. I had a three year old bottle of vicodin that I didn't even see the need to use after slamming my hand full-tilt with a 6lb sledgehammer! If the discomfort for the first few days of quitting smoking exceeds the pain of that fucked up hand, then maybe that's what pain killers are for. If day 4 is okay enough that stoning myself out first thing to escape said pain never really even entered my head this morning, then the odds on my getting addicted are probably pretty fucking slim.

I still haven't "come out" about the smoking on my other blog; I'm thinking I may just wait another week or so. I may well be able to throw a funny spin on it ...drugs couches and plotting infanticide, ...oh my!

The cold turkey thing sucks, but I still think it works by far the best for me! Dangit ...I think I'm going to go ahead and make that Wally Run, then get back here and veg the rest of the night.
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...and yeah, I'm back! I think that pretty well finishes me out on the "stuff I need" for the house except for the odd end table or whatever. I even bought a muffin pan and muffin mix this morning (ya never can tell!). Ouch ...I DID forget mixing bowls though, dammit ...I got the tupperware stuff, but forgot those (well, they weren't on the list); I was also looking at some storage containers that I think I may go ahead and pick up the next time too. I bought the new shower neck for the tub, and now have Zeke's shower hose all attached (I need a rubber washer for the new head though), extra pillow cases, some hand towels and a mop & plunger. I even got up my "oil paintings" up on the wall, although I probably shouldn't have done that without someone to help me level them. *sigh* The dizziness is really starting to creep up on me again; the cig cravings are sharp and powerful, but I'm still okay on that front. ...I may want to really stone myself out for the evening, but I dunno. Hell, I still haven't really even eaten yet, sooooo... no tellin! The big question at this point is "what do I want to eat?!" ...since I got hamburger at last, I'm kinda tempted to make sloppy joes.

The goober hasn't even been on me to take him out yet since I got back; maybe he saw "his" shower stuff going up, and he's trying to kiss my ass or something. lol!

Man I'm just a 'ramblin away. Perhaps some topics for later: online dating is always fun to tackle; shit that I hate seeing, and stuff I like!

I'm way overdue for a religion topic. I was just reading a blog a little while ago about a gals "special needs" son, and the whole thing was "God this" and "God that" ...and on the adult website, all the people saying how they are praying for her. For being an XXX site, there sure are an awfully lot of outpourings of faith on there. Not that it invalidates the faith, but it just seems kind of like a tap-dance though to try to appear virtuous and all on a hook-up site.

...oh yeah, and maybe that other under-the-table land deal by the gov't effectively turning a shit load of federal forest into condo property. ...and yet the "environmentalist wackos" are managing to hold back solar power for two years. gimmee a fucking break!